There are so many things I want to say and just pour out. It just sucks when I suddenly feel upset and afraid at the thought of doing so.

I think i’ve forced myself into a state of overconfidence in feeling like the future is certain and thinking that I know exactly how things are going to be. The fact of the matter is, I really don’t, and its so frustrating how i’ve kept this feeling to myself. I want to have a plan. I feel the need to have a clear idea of where I’ll be and who will be there with me through it all. I’ve always believed that I have to have a set plan for all aspects of my life. But as of late, i’m having a hard time grasping onto a clear-cut view. I suppose that maybe I really don’t know what it is I want.

I need to do some searching, and ultimately, I need to continue to grow and experience things without any inhibitions. I need to do what makes ME happy.

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